Back when I was in Utah for my girl's getaway, I promised Nina I would post of picture of my Bastion. He was born on June 10th 2004, and lived only a couple of hours. It is hard to remember sometimes that he is part of our family, but I am so grateful for eternal families and that he will be mine forever. This year on his birthday I didn't even remember until the middle of the day when I was running errands and had to pull over because I suddenly remembered and then burst into tears. We make it a tradition to visit the hospital on that day every year and donate a blanket and outfit to the grief room. When Kerry called me the other day and asked me what to say in a card to people who had lost a baby, I opened up Bastion's box (where we keep memorabilia) which I hadn't looked into in ages. It was surprisingly hard to look at all the pictures and his little clothes and blanket. That's partly because I felt guilty at how little I think about him. I want to remember, not forget.
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I often think of stopping when I drive by the cemetery. Perhaps I'll make more of an effort... And it is good to know that he's yours forever.
Now I am crying over breakfast, and Avery keeps looking at me saying "cry?" Only it sounds more like "dy?" Anyway...those are such precious pictures. I am so glad you have something to remember him by.I know as time goes on, our lives get busier and busier, and even if we don't think of them on a daily basis, they are in our hearts always. Don't feel guilty. He knows you love him.
((HUGS)) Marisa. I think he understands that his brothers and sister require your attention now, don't feel guilty. Like Kerry said, even if it's not a conscious thought, he's always in your heart and in the hearts of those who know about him too.
Lots of love.
Oh Marisa, he's beautiful. I too am so grateful for eternal families. You are such an example of strength and faith to me. Thank you. Love you, SC!
Heidi
Thank you for the wonderful post. I've been thinking of little Bastion for weeks because I just taught the Joseph Smith Lesson 14 (Words of Hope and Consolation at the Time of Death) in RS. I'll always remember how strong you and Russell were and what a beautiful service it was. You are an inspiration to me. I'll never forget Bastion and I know you will have him again someday.
I am so glad you posted pictures...I remember that day...what a lucky boy to have you for a mommy...I know he is waiting for you xoxoxox
Oh Marisa, I'm so glad you posted this. You have no reason to feel guilty. You have true understanding of the plan of salvation and the atonement and are exemplifying this by allowing the Savior to help you carry your grief. I love you and am so proud of you.
Love,
Nina
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